SHIT TUTORIALS ARE GOING TO START!

As topic and i am still so way off studying mood or whatever. Update. Joined rovers as member for now. Running for post of publicity assistant though.. (haha did my research and found out its the slackest post. but hey a great improvement for me k... the great big slacker.) But results are not cfmed until after some interviews and a trek to Jerangkang Waterfalls, Kuantan (Pahang) (f up. i paste the whole thing from the email man... where the hell is the place? )

OK picture time! blogs look better with pictures. and i am lazy too.... lets see whats in my phone..





lol.. from black sheep the movie.... sheep killing pple.. like totally rocks man! BLeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhz.





Scaring sis with a long expired curry puff which was squashed in a ktv outing of frantic singing.






Li xiang and angeline.... acting girly during a girly song. worthy to note: angeline cant get high on ktv. she needs drugs.




My tutee...




My super cute niece!




Me looking super retarded in the lab coat i just bought.... i dun wanna be a lab tech please!



BYE!

that was easy. blogging should be like this....

Moving on? Perhaps....

Think its time to start things moving... no more lamenting... though i kinda feeling empty and stuff....

went for a haircut at reds@bugis... my first time.. and coincidentally i got my sister's hairstylist! though i didn't know.. cause i tot it was some "tim". First experience was nice man... got massage one which seems kinda weird at first and the lady keep asking me if i feel uncomfortable cause i think i keep making weird faces.. haha... Was quite sianz when i went it and told ben (the hairstylist) to do whatever he like. Got a new look though i didn't realli like it.












So the term has started. Still with my grp at school.. seems like no matter how low profile i am at nus.. which is a fact, there will be pple i know to pei me go lect. Though many hi-bye friends, at least felt better. This sems kinda xiong.. with 4 killer modules.. ORGANIC CHEM.... biochemistry... SIGNALS and fluid mechanics... with how much activites i wanted to be joining i better watch out.

Joing odac and waiting for their welcome tea....waiting for cac audition... yday went for some archery course with joan but it rained and we decided to ditch it. my pool sucks.... no matter how good i am with theory.. my aiming sucks.. =(

and i didn't go canoe camp cause nobody wanna go which suxs. So i am told to go to some charity dinner with my auntie cause she pao the whole table and needed to find pple to go.





Chao keng road at katong... was surprised never see it during cchsm days.... =X

damn sad.

damn sad.... hope i will recover. Just lost someone dear. Phonecall from her in the morning leading me to be down the whole day. Slept in and out after my grandmother birthday celebration. damn depressed.

When you love someone... its very difficult to put it down no matter what. No matter what happens. and if its never meant to be sometimes nobody knows if its the right decision.







Thanks for being there for so long. and for everything. I will never forget you.

This is what you do what you are bored and its 2 am....

haha... i googled myself xinhan +blogspot and click on almost every link that has a correspondent with my name. Went out with benjamin wee to buy shorts and eat supper and was too awake even now at 2 am. Was fun.. the googling... found out my friends who posted about me secretly or not....and those links i lost. But sadly, i couldn't find another xinhan's blog. I would want to know all xinhans out there... be it guy or girl.. haha... i know there is a xinhan in taiwan hosting the chinese mtv... but he is irritating. lol..

Anyway.. on searching my english name simhan, i realised a lot of indians love this name. There is this indian called Rajah simhan who is very popular and widely spoken of in the net. I have no idea why as i cant read tamil. you may try.... haha.. Simhan and there is another xinhan who is earning millions as an engineer in the US. Inspiring.


So to whom is reading this blog.... please introduce me ure xinhans.....=)

gonna post pictures next time.

Failed my 2nd tp.

As topic... and very angry about it.. the damn examiner... i got 2 points for circuit and i got 38 points for outside driving! TELL ME IF ITS EVEN POSSIBLE . I am so filled with fury i feel like bashing him up. All along my instructor didn't say shit about my outside driving only on my abrupt lane changing (which isn't that abrupt already but he still penalise)(READ: ABRUPT LANE CHANGING MEANS CUTTING AT A STEEP ANGLE NOT RECKLESS CHECKING.. I STILL CHECK FOR CLEARANCE FIRST.) and i got 38 points?!!! In fact i argued one 8 point causing other vech to wait/perform evasive measures that he said when i coming out of the center the other school car has to slow down for me to exit. RUBBISH! It was signalling to go into the center and had slow down and begin to turn! I am 80 percent sure as when i turn i couldn't see anymore. Anyway that old freak was speechless and gave only a meek reply that it was straight. I can see self-doubt in his eyes. AND YOU KNOW WHAT! he gave me 6 points for insufficient acceleration. It was the points for the 1st gear before you release the clutch. WTH! The car didn't even stall and we were stuck in a jam. Must i rev the engine just so to escape that point. ANd my instructor oso never say its a marking point. dunno who to blame ... BOTH MAYBE! BUT THE ONE THAT MADE ME MOST FURIOUS IS A POINT ON VEERING OFF COURSE. WTF. I AM NOT SUCH AN INCOMPETENT DRIVER TO DO THAT. MAKE ME WASTE SO MUCH MONEY. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.........


and i make it a point to honk at those drivers who are so damn slow on the roads.... esp SCHOOL CARS......

I AM DAMN PISSED.

Teaching!

Ok... relief teaching to be more precise. Update. I read finished harry potter 7 though it wasn't in any book form.... go figure..haha... wasn't realli satisfied with the book though although it gives a passable ending of events. I haven got the mybook ... some chic looking storage hdd (hard disc drive la). thats because i am learning to hesitate before buying gadgets nowadays.. afterall i am realli surviving on my own now... no money from parents except house food and accomodation.

Relief teaching was horrible. Thats cause i am in a primary school. Little kids can be devils sometimes esp the p2s..... p1s still ok ... a bit gong gong cause haven figure out how to annoy teachers... p2s are when they learned all their tricks from their one year exp and p3s are when they start to behave like little smart asses and climb over ure head if ure not careful.

I am a maths and PE teacher. Maths was taught to p3s teaching them those familar problem etc Peter has 5 more oranges than paul. they both have 40 oranges. How many oranges does peter or paul have? Simple har.... they think so too.. and urged me to go through faster. and later keep coming up to me for explanations of harder variations. I cant be realli fierce though i tried hard to.. raising ure voice almost certainly works. Didn't realli enjoy teaching kids man.. keep acting like smart asses some of them.. couldn't recall me being like that last time. headache sia.. but i didn't realli care. as long as i do what was given out to me and make sure they know what they are doing.

I though PE was more fun. Well.. better than classroom a tiny weeny bit cause there is the problem of crowd control. P3s played badminton so had to get rackets and stuff for them and handle problems like "mr yu... i dun want to play with him. he always hit so far...." and a whole groups of boys wanting to challenge me badminton. and i mean all of them on the other side while i hit back at them. Of course, they played simply. hitting back and forth like aiming for the sky. most of them misses.
P1 and P2 were the worst! running here and there without control. Made them do a variant of shuttlerun to make them practice for sports day.

I sound like i am at a loss of how to handle the kids but in reality i did very well... haha... thats cause i am not a particular teacher and take note of what i am susposed to teach them... and they understand... nobody gets injured etc.. noise level acceptable. But this post is the horrendous afterthoughts of what could have happened.


day 2....

holidays blues.

lets see... yday i went driving today i went driving. BOTH CIRCUIT LOR... sucks... feels like my instructor is leeching me though it doesn't mean i like super perfect but close to leh... at least everybody if keep doing it sure like maybe one time hit kerb or what.. aniwae... feels like this drags the more i no mood. better faster pass sia... getting faster and faster and more skilful at overtaking haha... and nobody seems as fast as me in circuit too... HAHA!

yday i go library and borrow another 3 thick books. dun think i am going to finish them. cause i got sick of reading but tomorrow my sister ask me to help her buy harry potter and i am going to read it finish asap! WAHAHAHAHA.. and create some spoilers for those pple who haven read... ahahaha..

Just now went for a jog with my sister though we go different routes.. i ran one round around bedok reservoir. feels quite good to sweat. Maybe should do this often other than gym. mon tues gym wed running thurs fri gym..... WAH! cant believe myself at times. but tomorrow no gym cause the wei bin is working.. zzz. dun like to go gym alone damn sianz place.

I want to buy external storage liaoz.. tomorrow i am going to buy. Looking for the WD ibook or something. the quite chic one... wahahahaha! and set me back by about 180 bucks =( my notebook realli is bursting with data. got so many movies haven watch yet lar...

i want a mp3 player too. anyway my band like to hibernate sia.... play a while everybody feels good then in the end dormant again sucks sia.... nobody takes the initiative and everybody genre is different. SUCKS man.. maybe go CAC can get some hotly spirited pple man. or maybe i should join symphonic band.

Exploring picassa, flickr, shutterfly... etc....

and.... piccassa wins for the ability to download photos and 1 GB storage! download the offline client and create an online one with a google id. rest is very easy.

pictures uploaded ... just testing it... Testing Picassa

going gym then later dunno do what then later maybe meet joan tty and wendy.

I WANNA GO THAILAND!!

Pulau Ubin day

Finally... the much awaited pulau Ubin trip has arrived, after saying i wanna go there cycle again for so long liaoz.. met in the morning and tyng feng pang seh us.... then me zh and kenneth finally set off and ride in ubin. Zhong hao keep wanting us to follow some orientation group cause got freshie girls... and kenneth keep wanting to go back before we even really went around the whole island. trip was fun and met mingli ex-tj guy who i get to know through andi... merely acquaintance but was surprised he recognised me. Then suddenly the ntu pple who were with him ( some post- orientation ntu camp group of which he is the counsellor ) suddenly become very friendly and attempted small talk and on to bigger stuff. Now i know what on pple are really about.. even if ure friend's friend who you might not have the chance to meet again arrives, its cool to get to know him better on the off chance ntu merges with nus and we get along? hahaha... ok that is being rude... but i entertained him anyway. OK... i am friendly k.... i just don't like over-enthusiasiam.

Ubin is relatively easy to ride and the only challenge is some steep quarries on the western end before the chalets. Boys and girls, tip to get over steep climbs... first of all as you all know... get to the lowest gear asap. second.... stand up and pedal! you get more momentum and its easier by pushing on body-weight..... then when your legs are sore, sit back and pedal some more. Repeat the 2 steps and you should get to the top! Most of the saturday crowd pple all gave up the climb and push up their bikes. NOt trying to act pro here... but its really easier and you should all try it.

Ubin was fun and we got to some secluded beach spots. ANIWAE.... the ubin chalets there can play volleyball for $5 an hour... and its mostly vacant.. DIRT CHEAP! compared to sentosa. but overall i find ubin quite dull unless you in for nature and stuff. Will want to give the volleyball a try though.

Later met tf at ps and ate ajisen . I love ajisen cause its so filling... but now i am getting hungry again. Then we played lan at paradize. This time kenneth owns all the shooter and i own C and C 3 ... with help from teammate zhong hao of course. lan so sianzzzzzzzzzzz....

Should i join engine O week? Should i join ahm? i hope no to the latter man... i hate running long d.



3 of us near orchid farm (it has no orchids) taken on self timer cause angmos cant be trusted. haha



What a nice JUICY COCONUT!




Told you the scenery was nice!


lazy to post more liaoz.... good night!

pondering......

hello,
just came back from harry porter movie outing with my sisters..... movie was nice very smooth flowing and as close to my imagination of the actual happenings. *mini spoiler* halfway when the deatheaters started showing up, their masks and cloak look so much like the siths in star wars.... haha... you really will expect them to blaze out ligthtsabers instead of wands if ure a true star wars fan...

lots of trival things to say if i wanna write it all down... still cant get down to the essence and purpose of a blog.... for ranting? maybe more for look-on-back times when one gets old.. and when i am in my 60s..... will blogspot be still up? will the world still exist in the midst of so much speculation that global warming will bring calamity in 20 years time. To all those who blog for this reason, have you ever wonder about it? i suspect many of you will forget the existence of your blog when you actually reach the age when you wanna reminiscene about past goings. (did i spell it right? who cares....) and when you wanna retrieve these memories i suspect blogspot servers would have be reformatted, relocated or cease to exist with ure account inactive for so many years.

For now, i reckon that the existence of a blog actually enables one to crystallise his thinking and sort out his thoughts effectively.

And i really feel like typing out a lot of things today ... many of which have been bottled up for so long.

What is life? Not going to be philosiphical( yep.. haha i dun know how to spell k) about it or start preaching religion. But in my current understanding of the world, look beyond the little things we enjoy and love care and concern and there is nothing for us here. This is why so many religions and speculations about life's meaning derive from i suspose. And that is why because i am a christian and despite backsliding numerous times, i still believe that our life on this planet is short-lived and we must go to God and make the best of everything. haha... ok.. i admit i am going into religion a bit. hmm.. and i am wondering now if i am 60 would my outlook on life change.

I think i am thinking about so many serious issues because one. 1) I have too much free time since its the hols (besides gym and outings and everything else which makes me think harder) 2) I am close to the end of my education (uni i mean though i have 3 more years.. haa ^_^) and the time for me to start working and living a even more boring life is close. I have become so independent over the years that i am surprised this did not come to me before. Money issues aside, i spend more time thinking how to get more money (giving tuition etc) supporting myself and etc than i do on anything. 3) I am 22 years old. Despite looking damn young ( like sec 3 i admit) , i realised all good things come to an end. Lan gaming or any gaming seems childish to me now though i refuse to give up on them. Talking nonsense and joking sometimes seem so much waste of time. Think i am changing. hopefully! Feels so much cooler to be more mature. haha. ok.. i am not growing up i suppose.

WA LIEW....feels so song sia... after typing it... think i will forgot what i thought about soon. lol...

Aniwae... to sum up.. i have a WHOLE NEW LIST of goals i wanna achieve!!!

music makes one feels good

went for jamming with my friends today... hell lot of fun i haven had in weeks. played children of the sea by black sabbath and holy diver by dio...... those were solid songs.... very nice!.. hopefully the band will be able to grow...

went lan yday with tty who is back in singapore and meepok man and mr lee fu xiang. Played cs nfs quake 4 .. of which tty won in cs and i won the rest.. haha.... lan's getting boring.. they say i play games that dun need brain one.... cause i never play dota.. haha.... i lazy to learn dota lar.... first time play kanna owned i sianz liaoz...

tomorrow going out with yiling... and got driving too.. and need to go to the dentist... damn wire came out and cut into my cheek.. so painful until i took it out... damn doctor.

cheers =)

and the work continues... is it even work at all!!!!

hey!
and the person whom i known only yesterday got fired today. apparantly in this kind of biz ... you cant just get friends to pose as interested contacts.... wooh.... got quite a shock.... didn't even realise this job has the potential to get fired.

well... ok to summarise.... went gym with wei cheng yday ... and learnt his secret of drinking lamb soups and secret amino acid supplements.. lol... then slacked the whole day..actually i cant remember what i did.... i must do something though.. its an awful lots of time to be gone without actually doing something.. haha..

hey.. seems like this blogging thing i have gotten the hang of it... the keyboard is flying.. thats good... i dun even need to think.. .could even fill this whole page full of rubbish...... maybe this blog will survive...


Today's work was boring intially... the 2 girls i am with are damn boring... well... girls on the streets just seemed so much interesting than them... and they are strangers! i think i just look young which is good but which only lets me snag the students ones... and they are the ones who dun get me any commissions! ... and they seem to talk a lot.. or maybe its a combined effort. Met a young lass (lol.... does lass means young girl?) who is realli talented at putting make up.... looks like a doll.... aniwae.. hope i snagged their parents... she seems sincere in my policies.. though she's too young to participate.. and in return i introduced her to derrick ang who is about the only person i know in ntu material engineering which she is going to...


yiling's just busy like shit. everytime i call her she even needs to talk to me in the toliet. sad.


I am going to organise some stuff for edmund and my last time percussion group... they are so indecisive .... i am the man to do it man.....


i am never going to be a policy seller/ salesman etc.... its a throat-cutting back slashing industry....

Finding Meaning

Hello!..
Promised someone that i will try to start blogging so here i am. Sch holidays started like super long ago.... and i had been jobless less than 24 hours ago but i have one now! Well... cause of In camp training( ICT) which occur somewhat in the middle of the break i am forced to delay the search for a job. Went for my first interview (in my present job search) and got it! though its not my kind of job..... wun complain though... realised that its got a lot of its own advantages too...

Well, i am working for prudential.. not directly in the hard selling of insurance but am in the promoting section. There is no basic pay though but the commission is realli realli attractive.. and i mean realli.... haha.....

lets talk about what i did during hols....

1) Slack... and i mean real slacking.... its those wake up then realised got lots of time and nothing to do then go back sleep again.. repeat times about 5 times and in the end get a big headache.

2) Read 3 books within 3 days.... and i mean realli thick books.. (dun think i dun know how to spell really k....)


3) Bought a ps2! 2nd hand though... at $180..... not a fabulous buy i suppose but at a decent price.... fellow bolted when i requested a rebate for a faulty controller... guess everybody knows the danger of online transactions. somemore his games all cannot play one cause burned on lousy dvd.... cheapo...


4) keep trying to psycho myself to go running in the morning but have yet to do so. But went gym recently and getting a bit fitter le.. haha.


5) made plans about next semester ... what cca i joining.. etc. planning to join odac.. cac... and computer gaming club... but i think i will shortlist to two ... cause next semester realli very xiong... all the modules are killers... so it might be odac and cac... odac cause i hope it will keep me happy and not bored during the semester and cac cause my band wants a place to play without paying money.. (and did i say my band? haha!... )

tuition resuming this week.. finally income is coming... and so overdue... haiz.. hope i wun have to face shortage of money in the future.

have some fears about tomorrow... how to approach pple on the street etc.. somemore the targets are young working female adults.. haha.. dunno is it a blessing or what... not exactly a shy guy but i oso dun like to approach pple.

well... hope i snag a few targets.

I haven been going to church.. and feeling guilty about it.... not that i am entirely not interested... wanna be in god's plan.... but its feels so bogged down.. this whole church and cell group thing.. maybe i going to join my friend's cell again.


CHeers... what a super long post about my boring life.............=)